Forget the things I’ve said that are rude, hurtful, or upset you in anyway.

I love you Alexander Tyler Sullivan<3 

You are my everything.

You are my world.

always.

Don’t mock me…cause you just might lose me

according to you, I’m all you’ve got.

have fun losing yourself.

I want to die. And I always have.

thats all it is.

it’s a game.

i dont let you in.

you dont let me in.

too bad i know you will cave in first and lose. 

or maybe i will.

cause im tired.

or i will actually say something to you about it, you to where i have to find out through your private tumblr

Like time and I could just do whatever. Like lay in my bed in a mindless state of first stage depression and fall into a coma. Able to wake up and just observe things, I do that already, but I dont want anyone to bother me. That way I could do as I please say what I want at any time to anyone, but I wouldn’t have to have responses. It would be the only way I could get away when I want to be a recluse from the world, but not be terribly lonely the whole time I’m in solitude.

both of you need to sit down and say what is bothering each other.

alex, youre my boyfriend and yes you do annoy me at times and sometimes you come off as mean/ a dick to me. kyele is just being protective over me in a way cause he is my friend. but i still care about you a lot and i dont want you weird around kyele or think differently of him.

kyele, alex is my boyfriend and i understand you mean no harm. but he does not mean to fuck you over with shawna. he is one of the only people who will deal with her anymore when it comes to you. 

can you two just work this out and see that you both feel certain ways and try to work around all of this

its hard for me because certain things cant be said because im not even supposed to know. it sucks because to me it could all be solved so easily. 

point is

i love you both.

alex is my boyfriend/best friend

kyele is my ex/best friend

theres no changing that and i want it to work out.

Grow up and learn from your mistakes and choice of words. Don’t be a fucking dick and not expect me to avoid you.

New I shouldn’t have jumped into that this fast….but you mentioned it before and you seemed like it almost already happened… I feel turned down…after I completely opened up and gave a huge opportunity…. and idk…. I’m just upset now

and this summer is going to be amazing

Why do you people insist on dating the people that have only caused you problems for years with? Leave it alone, you will one day realize what you had right infront of you and let go and regret it. Am I the only one smart enough to drop things and have a relationship with someone better, who cares about me and respects me? I never want to hear about how bad they are hurting you. I’ll let you figure it out and learn it’s time to move on. I’m tired of mothering you to only ignore and defy everything I say.